Saturday, October 19, 2013

A Thank You Note


Thank you, Sakura Bloom.

You gave me the most beautiful slings, a delicate keepsake necklace, but most of all you gave me opportunities.
Six perfect opportunities to document precious memories with Rosalita that would have gone otherwise undocumented.
This was the dearest gift of all.
I will never forget this experience that I was incredibly lucky to be a part of.

So thank you, thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

I am wearing a Single Layer Luxe Baby Sling in Flax, very generously provided by Sakura Bloom.  
p.s  this is my 200th post!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Nothing.


On September 29th I stopped feeling like I had to cry all the time.

Two sentences in to any conversation and I would almost immediately duck away, with tears becoming the leitmotif in my life's overture.   Quiet quarter note breaths and long syncopated sobs.  But everything quiet.  "Think about puppies" I say to myself over and over.  Breathing in 3's-- 
trip-a-let trip-a-let trip-a-let

It would not have really mattered or become a problem if I never had to talk to anyone again in my life, which is more difficult than I had first presumed.  How do you let other humans know that you have become a bonafide recluse?  Do you send them a formally typed letter explaining that unfortunately, you'll not be seeing or talking to them again?  
(dear sir or madam,
i regretfully inform you that i will not be seeing or talking to you again
i am only a ghost of what i once was
i don't want to drag you down with me
respectfully,
yours, 
etc.)

It won't matter soon
[all gardens eventually turn gray]

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Rosalita's First Birthday


Rosalita turned one on the 25th of September and her birthday party was on a Saturday.  Everyone we invited came and our home was filled with friends and family and color and laughter.  We got to see so many loved ones we don't always get a chance to see and it felt beautiful having everyone all in one place.  
Amanda (who also made my wedding cake) made this gorgeous ollalieberry oreo cake and covered it in chocolate and flowers. 
We are so lucky to have such a wonderful family.