Sunday, September 19, 2010


Septembruary.








Shmeagol died. His funeral was a kind and loving effort. Amanda played her flute. I've been confused lately, confused and trapped-- my lungs seem to flux between a permanent state of either having no air or having so much that at any second my whole body might burst into a thousand smithereens that will soon turn to nothingness. My brain is filled with that smoky smell that is peculiar only to autumn and crunchy leaf crumbs, in shades of crimson and mustard and fire. Oh, and lately I like to hear about love; tell me who you love, tell me all about it.

7 comments:

  1. I am truly, truly sorry about your loss darling. I know just the feeling you describe far too well.
    I love a boy with bright blue eyes and messy blond hair. He lives in another coutry, quite far away, but I see him every summer at an international camp. This summer, at the last night dance he looked at me like he was going to ask me. He sort of hovered by me and looked right at me. And then walked away and asked another girl to dance. It broke my heart a little bit.
    Love <3
    ps. I wanted to say how much I adore the little film of you on your sidebar. You have the most beautiful smile xxx

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  2. I am so very sorry!It must be a terrivle feeling :(

    I am in love for two years now. We live 300 km apart.. And spend our weekends in trains and with each other. I can't imagine anyone else, he is my soulmate, truly. Two more years of school for me, two more years of riding long trips to get a glimpse of one another... And then an apartment together, a puppy, anything we like :)

    lots of love,
    K

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  3. oh. i do hope you are ok. my love life is not so good, so i won't share it. but these images are just dreamy...

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  4. Oh darling, I am sad to hear of your loss :(

    I love my boyfriend, we have been together 2 and a half years and lived together 1 and a half of those. When we were sort-of friends before we got together, he heard that i had to come back to manchester (from my parents house, where i had been spending christmas) on boxing day, so he drove all of the way to my work to bring me a turkey sandwich for my lunch :) That was when I knew he liked me, and I figured out that I liked him too. He still makes me smile today

    xxx

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  5. Oh darling, I am sad to hear of your loss :(

    I love my boyfriend, we have been together 2 and a half years and lived together 1 and a half of those. When we were sort-of friends before we got together, he heard that i had to come back to manchester (from my parents house, where i had been spending christmas) on boxing day, so he drove all of the way to my work to bring me a turkey sandwich for my lunch :) That was when I knew he liked me, and I figured out that I liked him too. He still makes me smile today

    xxx

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  6. So lovely.

    I love my best friend Kalaija. I met her in treatment for eating disorders, and we only spent two months together in treatment and we were instantly best friends. She's my sister and my twin, our lives are parallel. She visited me back in July and I went to her house, she lives in Oregon, for two weeks in August. Although we've only spent three months together, it feels like I've known her forever. And I miss her everyday. Being apart from her kills me. But I know that her going to college in Oregon is better than her moving here right away but it still hurts. I feel empty without her. I honestly don't remember what it's like to not have her in my life.

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  7. So calm, peaceful and bright! x

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